Friday, June 12, 2009
ytd night (today's wee hours) was scary. i felt damn accused & humiliated. i shant explicitly say why or who cause it isnt very nice. the
person was ridiculous & unreasonable (sorry for saying that K). i tried reasoning & persuading but none worked so, really! i just ignored the
'warnings'. geez. i felt threatened, really a little bit. i was in an absolutely foul mood last night, i cldnt sleep but i decided to sleep cause basically i was too angry & i know sleep does wonders so really, i realised now that i shldnt have BOTHERED to
even talk any sense/reason out. i shld have just argued back, but i didnt causeeeeeeee i was afraid of the consequences. now, i dont really care really. i feel like a dumbo now. why didnt i retaliate?
i was SO angry i cldnt express myself i felt myself tear. yknowwwww? everybodys like tht when they dont know how to express their anger. it comes out as water from the eyesss.
today i went to exercise!! like finally! haha with rachel&theresa. down to the gym we went and i finally ran aft abt a gazillion years. hahaha went for lunch @ theresa's and wahlao, theresa's maid cooks the most delicious dishes ive ever tasted. i ate 3 servings okay. wl, sound mega fat right? just slacked around @ her place for awhile before rushing home t get ready to meet the POP-ed.
realised tht my gramps has been looking rather down lately so i decided to dash out of the house to get him some dou hua (thanksss dk). and dashed back home again to serve it to him and dashed back out again t meet ys at the mrt againnnnn and we dashed to clementi mrt to meet the other POP-ed. sy timothy and 2 of sy's classmates? rachelkwan was lateeee cause yeahhh, she stay so far! so it's okay love. and she was super sway (heeheehee). and we LAN-ed!!! we were playing l4d and i realised tht i crap at it but i think im better than last time! i wasnt so scared to dash out anymore hahaha it was funnn but super waste $$. ys hated l4d so he went to play dota instead. bernard decided to do the teaching & hes super patient & i keep shooting my teammates, esp timothy cause he look like zombie!!
i keep getting incapcitated by zombies and keep reaching the dying stage & the others had to keep rescuing me hahaha. and i keep shooting them by accident. so sorraye! hahaha. rachelkwan was teamed with another 2guys (idk who). basically today it was an outing with a big group of people but most of them idk! hahaha rachel was pretty shocked­ tooo. hahaha. dinnered at subway and went home. reached home quite early like 7+, just in time t watch chnl8(: super nice i love the female lead she super chio. i like-aye ^^
THEN i realised im rly quite tired and my head is so full of so many things i rly dont wna think anymore. ): but i realised, that im blessed with the kindestfella everrrrrrrrrrr((:
force it down, lose the taste. they all think it's a waste. we dont need to believe every word they say, now.
they dont know me
won't you keep my secret for me? 12.6.09
