Saturday, June 20, 2009
SO TIRED SO TIREDDDDDDDDD.
i woke up at 0618 today. cause i heard my mom bake in the kitchen. she was making spongecake for my granddad cause tmr's father's dayyyyyyy :DD too bad my daddy isnt in spore, otherwise he can eat sth yummy too. so anyways, i wanted to continue sleeping but i thought abt the fatigue my mom wld feel if she'd to do it all, alone. sooo, i dragged myself out from bed & gave her a helping hand in the kitchen. she was rather amazed actually. i can see it from the shock in her eyes. instead of asking me, "are you here to help?", she asked me, "did i wake you?". sometimes i think my mother is the greatest angel on earth cause she always thinks for others & never herself first. i feel like such a failure being the way that i am and having a mom as wonderful as her. i feel ashamed somehowww. a person who really reminds me of my mom wld be sheila loh. idk why also but i just think they are both vv alike in many different ways. DONT GET ME WRONG DEAR FRIENDS. all of you are angels to me (: just that my mom&sheila loh seem soooo similar(: AND SHEILA LOH, im not saying that you v old also hahaha.
so anyway aft the cake was brought into the oven, i dragged myself back to sleep. and tried to sleep. yknow.. after waking up it's difficult to fall asleep all over again? soo i fell asleep and woke up at 930! still very tired though. ): ohhh i rmb once, i woke up crying REALLY badly. i was dreaming a dream of my dad breaking his promise to me, again. i mean in reality, im really pretty much over it already. but idk why in my dream i was so damn hurt, so hurt to the extent that i can feel my heart ache so bad that i cried & cried & my chest felt so constipated. i was so scared i will die of heart attack/heart pain i pried my eyes open manually. so horrible the exp i dont wna experience it again, ever ever ever!!!
slacked awhile before changing out to bring some clothes down to my grandma's house with my brother. i rly dunno why we stay so far from my grandmom. it takes soo long to go down yknow hahaha. chatted w my grandmom grandad aunt & cousin for a few hrs and left aft tt to meet ys at cityhall. went to RC to find his crumpler but too bad, dont have. went down to bishan j8 for erm, COTTON ON!! i wanted to eat the charsiew ccf but then mrkoh wasnt hungry. we roamed around aimlessly & decided to go down to wheelocks to get his crumpler. again, no stock. so he decided to stick to whatever there was. finally a blue crumpler okok mister, start loving it okay.
went for dinner @ pastamania and went on aft tt to buy his dad's fathers day gift. braun buffel wallet, nice. i realise guys take vv short a time to decide on what they want. in a way, idk if it's good or bad heehee. walked all the way down to ps to sit a bus home. the further, the more seats, sit down & rest. clever or not??
so tired from all the walking. HEEHEE gss is goooooood(:
won't you keep my secret for me? 20.6.09
