Tuesday, August 19, 2008
physics physics ): i hate studying for physics. i hate studying overall. idk how people can enjoy it sometimes. do they make themselves enjoy it? or is it because they are smart & they can just absorb & understand? then i wld wish to be more like you then (:
it seems like i can finally rest my head on something real.anyway, i heard a small boy crying really really hard just now. then i was reminded of my childhood past. haha i rmb myself crying vv loudly at the mrt station & my father just left me there, shoe-less. i wonder what i was crying for. maybe cause i pissed my dad off or bit his ear. then he angrily put me down on the floor and walked away. so scary. ): & i know i just sort of stood there crying. i wanted to run but my legs cldnt bring me far. how i yearn for my dad now. i miss him a lot ): i still rmb that i wear those quack-quack shoes and ling-a-ling things on my feet. my mom says it's t let my parents know i'm around or when i fall. then it wld be extra loud then they can rush out to see whats going on. i love my parents. everyday, there wld be love-yous, hugs and goodnight kisses. but as i grow older, no more of such stuff. no more goodbyes w love-yous as much anymore. no goodbye kisses to my dad. i think i outgrew them already. ): and i think it kinda sucks.
that was baby-time. & my mom wld tell me how small & fat i was. my dad wld bring me to many many places & wld continuously insist on carrying me because he wanted to. my mom wld tell me how she clapped her hands to get me to run to her , and now im still wondering why i wld run just for a clap. if my mom claps her hands in front of me now, i wld just clap mine back. who will run lah? but tt was babies ago. and how i missed them ): i was even shorter than my feet to my kneecap. how small. i cld squeeze into anything yay ! :D but now, damn sad. big like anything. ):
I LIKE THE WAY THAT FEELS . it's as if you know me better than i ever knew myself, i love how you can tell (:okay back to studying i feel like sleeping and i dun feel like putting fullstops to my sentence from this sentence on but this wld stop eventually cause it's a bad habit hahahaha maybe i will just go rest now and wake up later to start revising again study hard everybody (: (:
fall, with you i fall so fast.i am moody, messyi get restless and it's senseless.how you never seem to carewhen i'm angry, you listenwhen you're happy, it's a missionand you wont stop till i'm therehow do you everything i'm about to say?am i that obvious?and if it's written on my face, i hope it never goes away (:
won't you keep my secret for me? 19.8.08
