Wednesday, January 9, 2008
damn tired . ):
had pc in the morning . horrible ! it was damn tough . and my stamina sucks like shyt . seriously !! no wonder im so fat now . but im gonna do sth about it , and yep . i believe that if i continue t be determined enough t perservere , im sure my efforts wld be paid off (: i think im starting t be positive ! :D
& i have t acknowledge the help of pearlyn . the jog ytd really made me wake up. i seriously think theres no need t continue my life so.. aimlessly . makes me more depressed & yep , my goals wld turn t no goals at all . so i dont think i should really dread skl .
pearlyn told me loadsa stuff , enlightening me w her philosophies and putting some sense into my stupid brain . & im beginning t think that maybe i can live my life happily if i put aside unncessary stuff & focus on the more impt stuff .
the jog was really enlightening . cause i seem t have a clearer view of what ive t do now . i did sth really , really relieving ytd . i just hope that things wld improve (:
i had the sudden urge t really study hard during econs lecture . & during maths lecture , i lost all the motivation that i gathered up during the course of the day . HAHAHA IM DAMN SUCKY LAH .
identity-crisis.oh anw , pc was shit okay . i think im damn damn sucky at physical fitness . but neither am i good at academics . now im really wondering whether im good at anything . damn stupid lah , im demoralised again .
and im beginning t miss fairfield again . ):
had laughs w the girls again . they make me damn happy everyday . & im beginning t fit into skl life again , dont seem t hate / dread it all that much , as compared t last time .
but im still hating it. just seem t hate it less .
oh anw , i suddenly felt damn sad . hahaha . but really , although i might mention it here , pls dont think it's you okay . i just wanna say out my innermost feelings .
i really HATE IT when pple slap me , whack my head or anything . so my dear girls , it's ok t have fun & joke around w me . but pls pls pls, dont over-whack me , or over-slap me . cause sometimes , although i might not show it , im v sad by it .
but you guys can still have your fun at teasing me , playing w me , haha & going against me & all . hahaha . as long as we're all having fun & yep , sometimes things might get out of hand & violence starts t take over. dont worry , im ok w it . slap / whack once or twice , it's okay ! :D:D i mean it , but dont keep slapping & whacking . i will feel damn .......... hahahaa im sure you get what i mean (:
i love my girls , in / out of class (: cause you make my life in JJ ENDURABLE (:
lose my breath
won't you keep my secret for me? 9.1.08
