Sunday, December 23, 2007
christmas's eve's eve
i dont have the urge of celebrating christmas this year. the feeling of excitement & white-christmas isnt here . i guess something is majorly wrong this year , for me .
things have been pretty much sucky for me lately . i feel like im losing everything . relationships ; close people . they are all the same . they are distancing themselves away from me . & what am i supposed t do ? feel all joyous & happy when christmas is coming ? sorry that's a no-no for me .
im so sad pearlyn went overseas . shes my near-home-buddy & yet , she isnt here ):
i have been fighting the urge t cry . i mean im damn damn damn sad ? but the crying only ended up in tears . means theres a whole lump of salted water in me which is still struggling t get out . oh why why . why cant i just celebrate this year's christmas properly ? all's well ends well . let's just hope this year ends pretty well , considering the fact that christmas might suck .
but still , i'll try my best t enjoy it . to start off , im making christmas cards now . a totally-in-and-out diy christmas card . from the cutting t the words . it's D.I.Y (: ohhh theres a new song from sylvester sim . very nice (: he made it himself . i really like chinese songs sometimes. the words are meaningful , clear-cut & straight t the point . anw the song is xi wang if im not wrong
im gonna bake cookies later too . this time , i'll do the baking . my mom wld just supervise . so xy , stop saying the cookies are not made by me . & since u keep reminding me t do it myself , you have to eat my cookies (: i know youre a huge supporter of my baking skills . t remind you , i havent baked before (: all the best t ur super-ulta-sensitive-tonugue ok ? :D
everything's so not going well
won't you keep my secret for me? 23.12.07
